I haven’t had an orgasm since late July. I had lots of them for ten glorious days. I have written about the drop I felt afterward and how that impacted me. But there is one part of that drop that I didn’t notice. Sex and orgasms with her are wonderful and deeply satisfying in a way that orgasms without her are not. I have always preferred orgasms with a partner… Read More »Not Going or Coming
I have been thinking about us recently. To be completely honest I think about us a lot. I am doing my best to be a better boyfriend and dom and so I am constantly reviewing what we have done, what we will do and what we might do. Since my brain is fairly broken my thoughts often go to different place that is distant from where I started and this… Read More »The Willing Bondage of Consent
I think I am having a bit of relationship drop. We recently had ten days of bliss. Non stop time together and it was amazing. Unlike both of our other visits we had more time. Time to do ordinary life things with each other. Cooking, cleaning, reading, watching movies, the stuff of everyday life. This is what life is like in an LDR. Long periods of separation with (up until… Read More »Just a Drop in the Ocean
The place between Heaven and Hell for those that believe such things. I am not a believer, but I am currently inhabiting limbo. Lillith and I have just spent 10 glorious days together and I am now at the airport waiting for my flight. I could regale you with all of the wonderful things we did together and I am sure that over the coming months i will. We did… Read More »Limbo
We are going to see each other again on Monday. We met in Paris in March and were already discussing when we would meet again. Then things changed and those plans were put on hold. I know for many it has been much longer since they have seen or will get to see their person and that just sucks and so I try not to be very public about our… Read More »The List
[showhide type=”Content Warning]D/s, The appearance of non consensual use, objectification[/showhide] Since the last time we were together we have been making a lot of plans for the next time we are together. We have a list and not just because she loves lists. But so we can plan the best use of our time together. I have a plan that isn’t on the list, well, at least not yet. I… Read More »Toy with Her
I am a patient man. This isn’t just my opinion. I have been told this many times over the years. It has served me well and I work hard to cultivate it. When I do it right it helps me. It keeps me calm under pressure and mostly stops me from letting anger drive my decisions. Mostly the people in my life like it too. Except, when they don’t. Sometimes… Read More »Patience
I have learned a lot over the last 18 months. Some of it bad, some of it good. All of it useful. Some of what I have I have learned has show me my terrible decisions and what I need to do to avoid repeating them. Some of it has to do with other people. The thing I am going to talk about here is something that I wasn’t sure… Read More »Not an option
Back in the 80’s and 90’s I did concert sound for many artists. Some I knew and some I had heard before and some I saw for the first time on the road. Bonnie Raitt I listened to her album Nick of Time many many times. I was really happy to find out that she would be playing at a festival I was working at in support of her new… Read More »Something to talk about
I have always striven to be a good man. I have often failed. That doesn’t stop me from trying again and again in the hope that this time, I might finally get it right. How I define being a good man has changed over the many years of my live and has been influenced by both those I love and respect and those that I do not. Mostly what my… Read More »Good Enough
