I have been thinking about co dependency a lot. I read up on the many many books and articles about what it is, how to break free from it and how bad it is for you. The thing is, I am not sure I agree with that completely. Yes, it can be bad and controlling and destroy lives in many cases. But it has become to be cast in a… Read More »A House of Cards
There are many things that there is always more of. Money, food, work. But there is one thing that there will never be more of. Time Time is precious, we each have a finite supply and we don’t know how long we have. To be honest in my youth I never thought I would make it for as long as I have. But here I am, with more of my… Read More »Time after time
I want to fuck you. I want to fuck you like I love youLike I hate youLike I want to hurt youLike you were made to be fuckedLike yours is the last cunt I will ever fuck As you were made to be fucked until we are both sore and sated I want to use you. Like a toy Like a plaything Like my own fuckdollLike a hole to use… Read More »Like is a Simile
Most of us have learned that love is pain. By a certain age most of us have had a few relationships fail. That pain of your first heartbreak, that endures. The passage of time doesn’t make it any better. Every time your heart is broken you get to feel that pain again, each successive loss of love piles on top of the previous one. Ad infinitum. Eventually you start to… Read More »A Black Heart
It was a long time coming this moment. We had been waiting an eternity, or at least it felt like one. But that long awaited time had arrived. She was kneeling before me. Offering herself to me to be mine as I offered myself to her to care and treasure what has been offered. Her I am bound to you And I offer myself for this binding I belong to… Read More »Bound to me
Too often we think of thing to narrowly. That words have a single meaning and not many, if not multitudes. I love words, the way they make me feel, the way they rumble in my brain, the way they feel in my mouth. The power they have when unleashed. That seems to be the case when it comes to our senses. We take them for granted and limit their impact… Read More »The Sixth Sensuality
In many D/s relationships the submissive has tasks. But what about the Dom, do they have tasks too? To some that is a ridiculous question. But I don’t think so, I think that while Doms don’t have tasks they do have responsibilities. Keeping to those responsibilities is key. I have forgotten that in the past and I won’t do that again. Building a relationship takes work and attention on both… Read More »Dom tasks
I don’t even need to finish that sentence and you know what I mean. There are a lot of idioms about home but the one that has always rung true for me is “Home is where the heart is.” That has almost always meant that I was living with the person I was in love with and for 38 years that has been the case and where we lived didn’t… Read More »There’s no place like…
My little slut was expressing some thoughts about the seeming contradiction between BDSM and your partner being mushy and romantic and loving. And I can see how many people might find those things mutually exclusive. After all, how can you beat, humiliate and use someone you love? This conversation started with her telling how amazing it was to find love and caring and D/s all in the same purpose. Not… Read More »Love and Filth and Pain Oh My
We live surrounded by magic. I don’t mean the Abracadabra kind of magic, I mean the everyday kind that makes itself known in the mundanity of everyday life. Those things that move your heart and bring you joy. A good cup of coffee or tea (If tea is your cup of tea) a cigarette, a rainbow, or a thunderstorm. Those things that happen each and everyday that we take for… Read More »It’s Magic
